Literally 4:53am and im laying in bed just thinking of everything… honestly i feel sooo scared and i have no idea why. time is flying by and i feel like everyone is doing what they want expect me. im just scared that im going to end up doing something i don’t enjoy doing for the rest of my life. thats honestly my biggest fear. having to settle down for something because i gave up my dream. i know i shouldnt give up on dreams but its literally soooo hard having faith in something you are 99.9% sure is never gonna happen. idk, i just feel scared. i want to know everything is going to be. i want to know that no matter what happens i will be happy and content with my life. thats honestly all i want. happiness.